Today’s letter was not coming. 

A day such as this, had never happened before.

For the last 520 Fridays, every week, without a miss, a letter would always come through for you. Today was different.

It was as if it was trying to get me to notice the silence. The quiet.

I’m sitting here just waiting to write.

Maybe this is what was needed today.

You see, the only reason I have had the courage to write this letter for the last ten years, was because I never thought I was the one writing it.

I was just the transcriber. 

It was God. The universe. The energy. The force.

Everything but me. 

And today after 520 Fridays the letter didn’t show up.

I was left here alone, sitting. Looking for the words.

Thinking to myself, what if it doesn’t show up.

What will I send?

So after sitting here for hours I just started writing about this moment.

Right here.

After all, it has always been about what is.

Hasn’t it?

And trusting that.

Not questioning if it is enough.

It is what it is.

Have I ever told you that at the cemetery where my husband is buried, right across from him is a headstone that says it is what it is. In big letters.

So every time I would visit I had to read it. It was right there staring at me.

At first I would get mad. Angry.

How fitting. In a cemetery.

It is what it is.

I must have read it a thousand times.

At some point I started to agree. I had to.

What else was left for me to do.

It was what it was. 

So wherever you are, if you are feeling that you don’t have what you need, do what I did today.

I took what was here and trusted that it was enough.

We do what we can, with what we have.

That has always served me well, especially during the hardest days of my life.

Put one foot in front of the other.

And one more thing.

Even if all I got today was to tell you how much I care, and how much you mean to me I would have sent it with just those words.

And it would have been enough. 

With all I have, and everything I am,

Christina

Christina Rasmussen is the creator and founder of The Life Reentry Institute, Second Firsts, and Star Letters, and the host of the Dear Life Podcast. Christina is on a crusade to help millions of people rebuild, reclaim, and relaunch their lives using the power of their own minds. Christina’s work has been featured on ABC News, NPR, The White House Blog, and MariaShriver.com. She is the bestselling author of Second Firsts: Live, Laugh, and Love Again, which has also been translated in Chinese and German and just released her second book Where Did You Go on expanding the mind in ways that allows co-creation with the forces of the universe. She is also writing her first work of fiction: a science fiction story about a woman on a quest to start over and begin a new life. You can find more information on her website and follow her on FB or Twitter.

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